This End Down

Recently I’ve become very aware of some factors influencing the representation of Black characters in American TV & Film. Since I moved to Florida, got involved with InterVarsity, and made some incredibly gracious Black friends who’ve worked with me to help me understand how much different much of their experience has been from mine, I’ve become much more aware of the racialization of the world around me. But I don’t watch a lot of TV or movies, so that’s one arena in which I’ve stayed blissfully unaware… until recently.

Pause for a moment. Racialization is not the same as racism. I first read the term in Divided by Faith, an incredible book that gave me so much understanding and wisdom and research and fact (to add to the personal testimony I’d gained) about the race situation in America and in the church. Racialization as I read it is not the same as racism; racism is a knowing dislike of and unfair negative approximation of a person’s worth because of their skin color, ethnicity, etc. (which in our world fall under the social construct “race.”) However, many people have told me that white people who don’t get super-involved with race issues, etc. are racist. I always clashed with that. Instead, Divided by Faith presents the concept of a racialized society–one that has distinct lines drawn along the boundaries of race. More black men in prison, segregated churches, different health rates and hiring rates and educational quality, etc. So, you can exist in your happy white world, unaware of what’s going on with people of ethnic minorities, and you can think great things about them–you’re not a racist. Yet if you aren’t actively learning about and doing things to end racialization, you’re still allowing a racialized society to persist–which isn’t any a lot better.

Back to the original point: I’ve been making some comments recently on Twitter about Black characters on TV. Essentially, I like to watch TV while I design web sites–it distracts me just enough to keep from getting bored, but it’s not stimulating enough to slow down my work. I’ve been watching a lot of normal shows recently–not advanced, award-winning shows that are on the forefront of social commentary, but plain old normal shows–and I’ve noticed a trend across all of them: Black people are accessories.

It’s sad. It’s a terrible thing to admit. And, growing up, I would’ve told the person saying what I’m saying now to stop whining. But there’s something to this. In these shows I’ve been watching, the Black characters fall into a few simple categories:

• The mean girl’s follower best friend
• The drug dealer
• The young kid from the projects who’s trying to make his way out playing basketball
• The “mammy”, the homely, simple, sweet but a little sassy mother/neighbor/grandmother/landlady
• The voodoo mystic (usually African, Haitian, or from New Orleans)

There are certainly others, but I can’t tell you the last time I saw a consistent Black character with depth that didn’t fall into some strong stereotype. Smallville had Petey, but he disappeared right quick. I know there have been others–everyone can name a show with a Black president or a Black best friend. But in general, I’ve been more and more disappointed the more I see.

Obviously, this is excepting movies and TV intended for Black audiences. From what I can gather, I once would’ve been able to point to BET, but now it seems to be shirking its original intention of giving Black Americans A) real roles for the actors/characters and B) programming that meets them where they are.

Anyway, that’s where I’ve been coming from. I find that I’ve been mentioning this a lot recently, and I decided it was time to really write something about it and see if people wanted to say anything about this, teach me more, learn from what I’ve learned, or whatever else.

*Edit*: If you’re interested in learning more about these topics, two of the best sites (in my opinion) are UrbanFaith and Racialicious. UrbanFaith looks at national issues from a Black Christian context; Racialicious is devoted to all things racially motivated/striated. One note: Racialicious contributors are very comfortable with sex and some language that might make some people uncomfortable, so visit if you can handle it.

I’ve been keeping up http://intervarsityuf.org/ for the last few years. It runs on a proprietary PHP/MySQL Content Management System I wrote specifically for the site (called CampusPress, but I wrote and named it before I’d heard of WordPress–I promise.) It’s essentially an underpowered version of some of the simplest posting and paging features of Wordpress, and were I to start again I’d just install Wordpress.

The problem is, not a lot of people (as far as I can tell) actually use the site. People often find us through the site, but it’s seldom that I hear a student talking about their use of the site or discovering something new through the site. It’s a pain to remember to update it, since we can do Notes and Events in Facebook, and getting students whose lives revolve around Facebook to regularly use an external web site is ridiculous. What intrinsic motivation do they have to regular visit the site? Nothing. And few to none of them use RSS readers, so that does nothing.

On the other hand, the Facebook group

• Allows us to create events with RSVPs and photo galleries
• Allows students to invite friends to events and discuss rides/etc
• Gives me a convenient way to message everyone (we have a Listserv on the web site, but e-mailing students is almost worthless these days–if you want a response, send a facebook message)
• Requires no backend programming or updates
• Is free

Finally, Facebook pages are even more powerful than groups:

• They allow your page to be visible to non-facebook-users (increasing outside visibility)
• They make your group an actual facebook entity, meaning you can use the Publisher–release status updates, write/import Notes, post links, photos, and videos–and these updates show up in your students’ feeds
• Using a new feature called Insights, you can track your visits and the popularity of certain aspects of your page
• There’s much more possibility for customization, allowing you to add tabs and customize your site design and programming using FBML (Facebook’s version of HTML)

So, I’ve created the InterVarsity Christian Fellowship at UF InterVarsity Christian Fellowship – UF Undergrad page I realized after I created it that I should’ve named it “InterVarsity Undergrad at UF”, so I hope that doesn’t come back to haunt me when Greek (and Grad?) chapters want their own pages. I’m trying to figure out if I should start a new page now, before I invite people, or try to learn how to change it.

Once I learn how to change the name or just start a new one (or just stick with this name), I’ll put up more information about how everything’s working out in the transition. I tagged this with “facebookpage“, and hopefully I’ll remember to do the same in the future.

I wish I could say I have a well-researched, Biblically-based opinion here. I don’t. I’ve just thought about this some times and want to have a discussion with some people. I don’t have all of the answers–in fact, I have far more questions in this area than I have answers. I also don’t want to repeat my experience of starting huge, divisive comment flame wars. So, as a preface: if any discussion happens and if it starts getting heated, I will just shut off the comments and delete any heated comments. That having been said, here’s my thought:

I’m trying to figure out what I think about professional worship musicianship (the title/position/cultural entity, not them as people). There are a lot of things involved in this discussion and a lot of things that affect how I can look at the discussion. Here are a few.

• I’m a full-time employee of InterVarsity Christian Fellowship, a Christian campus ministry. I’m essentially paid (although, since I fund-raise, it’s a little more complicated than that) so that I can do all day the type of ministry that all Christians are called to, but have less time to do because of their full-time jobs.
• I love the worship leader at my church, Steve Adams. I don’t think he should be asked to do the work he does without being compensated.
• I believe someone could make the point according to Biblical precedent that no one should be “paid to minister” (the term “professional ministers” comes up often in these discussions). However, I believe that these sorts of arguments–at least, in the context of what I’m discussing here–forget that there’s also no Biblical precedent for “churches” like we have today, so unless you’re a part of a house church type movement, I’m not sure if I think this argument holds a lot of weight. Also, there was this guy in the Bible named Paul who set a little bit of a precedent here.
• I regularly enjoy the music recorded and written by professional musicians. I’m currently listening to music from Eddie James, and have benefitted greatly by the ministry of many modern Christian worship leaders/musicians–among others, Jason Upton and Fred Hammond.
• I make a distinction here between Christian musicians and Christian Worship musicians. I know that all Christian music can be called worship; however, a musician who is a full time musician who is a Christian is, in my eyes, different than a full-time worship leader/musician. Derek Webb writes desperately God-focused music, and while his music reflects more strongly a deep relationship with God than many mainstream worship leaders, I consider him a Christian musician, not a worship leader. Tell me if you think I’m wrong. I’d love to think more on this topic.
• I recognize that the previous point is debatable, as I have a somewhat tenuous distinction between the two. I have a very arbitrary distinction in my mind that is definitely a stretch and which I recognize as incomplete: I feel like Derek Webb and his compatriots (for an extreme, see Pedro the Lion’s David Bazan) have the freedom to have whatever relationship with God they have. They can have good days and bad days, they can question God and their faith, and they can show themselves as regular people. I don’t feel like worship leaders are given the same allowance to be human.
• Compelled to feel joyful: I would venture that every Christian, at one point in their lives, has sat in a Christian gathering while everyone else smilingly sang “You Give Me Joy” or another such song, and thought, “I have no joy! I’m such a hypocrite for singing this!” I would urge them to sing anyway, and see how God moves in their hearts. As a worship musician, I have a similar experience–yet it’s so much easier for me to sit and play the bass lines to “You Give Me Joy” without engaging at all in the lyrical/spiritual content of the song. This is definitely a danger.
• I recognize the value of smiling if you’re on stage at church. I also hate being told to smile, and cannot force myself to do so if someone’s required me to.
• I feel something of a weight when I’m in a church full of people dancing, jumping, and singing. On the one hand, I’m so happy that God means so much to people. On the other hand, I can’t say that I can confidently claim that the church is bringing that sort of joy out into the world. Yes! Given one or the other, I’d prefer people be joyful and passionate when they’re intentionally in fellowship and in God’s presence. But I feel like we can have both.
• Local versus Traveling: I also struggle some with the concept of the traveling worship musician. I spent much of my middle school and high school free time as a part of a very charismatic, spirit-filled group of worshippers who loved spending time in a literal upper room praying and singing and crying out, but who never (to my memory) helped a single poor person or saw anyone come to Christ. That same “worship culture”, for a desperate lack of a better word, is present in a lot of groups that jump and hoot and holler when their favorite worship musician comes into town, and they all have a big emotional Jesus fest, and then they go back home and do nothing. I’m not saying that anyone who goes to Christian concerts is bad! I’m saying that I worry that traveling musicians may feed into the subculture of Christian “worshippers” who are passionate at church and unengaged outside of church. Where local musicians/worship leaders are members of the congregations they minister to/with, traveling musicians don’t have the same connection. Again! I listen to worship CDs, I listen to other church’s podcasts, and I’ve been to plenty a worship concert in my day. I’m just somewhat troubled by the entire mindset of the traveling worship musician, and I’m struggling to find out why–and completely open to the conclusion that it’s just my personal issue.
• I may add more here. I feel like it’s a broader issue, but all this typing has made me forget all of my original thoughts about it.

The pastor of my local church body, Mike Patz, said something recently that I really appreciate. The gist was this: “I was thinking about watching Religulous [(a movie critical of religious people)]. Then I realized, I can criticize the church plenty on my own. I don’t need someone else to help me with it.”

In the same way, the last thing I want is for this to be a complaint session about the modern church. I’m sick and tired of “enlightened” Christians in my generation sitting around and complaining. Instead, I’m trying to develop a right theology so that I can be a part of bringing the church closer to Jesus, and would really love some people with more wisdom than me to share their insight into the areas of my confusion.

NOTES (added later)

• My friend Jeff asked “What’s a professional worship musician,” and then “What’s a worship musician?” This prompted me to think about what exactly makes one a worship musician–considering that “worship” certainly means more than music. Could part of my problem be a feeling that one can be a church/Christian event musician without being a true worshipper? I don’t know, but I definitely think that’s very close to the heart of the issue–at what point is there so much structure in something that it allows someone to “participate” in it without actually getting the point? Maybe it ties into my early  dislike for all things rigid and traditional.

The Twitter and Tumblr folks picked up on this already, but I will not be playing Urbana this year–the worship leader already had a bassist, but she was waiting to hear back from him before she told me whether or not she wanted me to come audition. I sort of wish she would’ve told me that up front so I’d feel less silly, but this means I don’t have to worry about making a difficult decision about free time and responsibility versus the desire to play for Urbana.

Thanks for your suggestions, help, and encouragement.

I have to figure out whether or not to audition for the Urbana ‘09 worship team. Here’s what I have so far:

Pros:

• Playing bass in front of 22,000 people
• Playing and worshiping with an amazing set of musicians, writing new music, playing all sorts of different styles
• Not being frustrated if someone ends up playing who I think I could play as well as/better than

Cons:

• $300 plane ticket to audition
• Crazy nerves for audition
• Huge time commitment if I make it–the worship team will play 6-10 gigs together between September 08 and December 09
• Personal struggles with whether or not I really consider myself a performance bassist or whether I just serve where needed–how much of my desire to do this is to serve a need, and how much is because I’m prideful about my abilities? Also, how comfortable will I feel playing in front of that many people? Whoo boy.

Any feelings, ideas, contributions?

The first few days were so full of new things that it was easy to write often. That’s less the case now, as I try to not be overwhelmed by the extensive amount of new information that’s finding its way to my ears. Thankfully, as an Extrovert (yes, InterVarsity and its obsession with Myers-Briggs has sucked me in) I need to process externally, and this is one of the best spots for that. Yesterday, though, I definitely found new information bouncing off my head, with no way to make its way past the jumbled barrier of all the other new information I’ve taken in over this week. Thankfully, note-taking helps me keep the new info for later processing.

• I’m sitting outside of the capitol and there’s a farmers’ market surrounding the entire capitol square. People-watchers, [insert phrase here that means "enjoy yourself." I couldn't remember what the phrase was... the only thing I could think of was "eat your heart out", and somehow that doesn't seem right.]
• I finally gave in and learned all about Myers Briggs, took the formal MBTI test (who knew that the “Center for Application of Psychological Type,” whose brochure we’re using to teach use about MB, is in Gainesville), had some long conversations about it, and took MyType on Facebook. I am, officially, and after some figuring, an ESFP, an Extroverted Sensing Feeling Perceiver. That means a lot of things, but it mainly means that I understand myself a lot more now. I know that seems silly, but part of the process of figuring out my MB type was figuring out that some aspects of my character are that way because of my family, some because of people’s expectations of me, and some because of the way I actually am as a person. It’s nice to start figuring out which are which.
• I evangelize some non-Christ things like crazy. It’s never on purpose, but the list keeps growing. This week they’ve been: Books of the Bible presentation (from whom I just got an e-mail regarding their future plans… exciting…), Moleskine, and Mac. We’re actually thinking about starting a MUG (which I never heard of before this week) for InterVarsity staff who use Macs, because there’s so little organizational support for Macs and such a growing number of us who use them.
• There was a dance party last night. I seldom enjoy dancing–not that I have a problem with it, but that I’m uncomfortable doing something when I feel like everyone else is better than me (and I know that’s not rational, but I can’t really control that feeling)–but this particular party happened to have a Wii party across the hall from it, which was a very nice alternative. So, I played Smash Brothers and Rayman Raving Rabbids while the more self-assured staff danced their faces off.
• I’ve never been as encouraged about staff, fundraising, or the particular things I’m involved in on campus. I’m encouraged about the ISM (International Student Ministry) some of my students want to start, I’m encouraged about BCM (the Black Collegiate Ministry) in the Southeast, I’m encouraged about our Nurses’ Christian Fellowship, I’m encouraged about fundraising and my call to staff and InterVarsity as a movement. This is good.
• Mario and Princess Peach just walked by me. There is some sort of treasure hunt/scavenger hunt/something going one, and we’ve been seeing pairs of people run by in matching clothing with marathon-like numbers on their chests and bags on their backs. Most are dressed like runners, some are dressed like middle-aged people trying to dress like runners, and those two were dressed like Mario and Princess Peach.
• Did I mention that Madison is gorgeous? Madison is gorgeous.
• That’s it for now. I’m going to get my butt off of my computer for some of my Sabbath and see what sort of reflections are in store for me.
• I just had some confirmation that I’m an extrovert. Dave, my roommate, left the Starbucks I’m sitting at about 10 minutes ago, and I’m already craving human interaction. Yep.